Date: 7/16/2006
Time: 1:39 AM
Temp: 84°
Eyes: Young Frankenstein
Ears: Same
Heart: All weird inside but really good about myself
Mind: I should be in bed
Immediate Quote: "I'm holding on to it, darling!"

So for some reason I'm feeling very wise tonight. I figure, I'm gonna be 25 soon. And a quarter of a century is enough to have learned some things. So I decided to make a little list of lessons and laws of life. Just little things that are true for me, things I live by, shit like that. So here it is. Follow it well.

- You’re awesome if you say you are.

- Drink as much water as you possibly can.

- Some days you get the bear. Other days the bear eats you. But always dress for the hunt.

- Love is more important than anything else.

- Only do it if you really mean it.

- Only buy used books.

- Cuss.

- If something needs to be said, fucking say it. It will only hurt someone if they deserve to get hurt by it.

- Never hurt yourself to keep from laughing.

- Never laugh to keep yourself from hurting.

- Pain is natural. Never ignore it. It exists to let you know something isn’t right.

- Do it now, find a way to pay for it later.

- Don’t keep anything hidden from others, it makes you a coward.

- Don’t pretend to be someone you’re not. If you hate yourself that much, make the decision to change.

- Your enemies already know how much you dislike them so just leave them alone. Use your time to tell the people you love how you really feel.

- Don’t be afraid of your feelings. Accept them. They’re the one thing you can’t change about yourself.

- Most of the things we regret are not things we’ve done, but opportunities we’ve lost. CARPE DIEM!

- Don’t fucking lie. Period.

So, I guess that's my life list for now. I believe evertying on that list as either something I have learned to be true, or a law that I follow in my life. And now I'm going to bed.

Jeff °o°

Date: 6/30/06
Time: 6:22 PM
Temp: 89° (feels like 91°)
Eyes: Queer as Folk Season 3, Episode 3
Ears: Same
Heart: Wanna go to one of the parks but I know it's fucking crowded
Mind: FINALLY! But there's still so much to do
Immediate Quote: "Well, there's fruit for desert. I know it's not exactly exciting."

Well it looks like we finally have an apartment to live in when the boys move here! It's by the airport so we get to hear planes. It's not bad tho. Loud if you're outside but I could barely hear them inside. We don't need it til August but it's available in like 2 1/2 weeks so we have to take it then or someone else will. So I guess I'm moving in there the second week of July by myself. That should be interesting. The rent is a little higher than we wanted but it's seriously the only place I can really find. It'll be good. The neighborhood isn't the nicest in town but the actual property is nice so it's a happy medium. I feel relieved that things are looking pretty much set but I still feel like I shouldn't celebrate just yet. I'll believe it's true when I start moving in. Or at least when they ass-rape us for all the god damn money very shortly.

Now by big concerns are about my drivers lisence but I can't get that til my birth certificate gets here which should be Weds but I work so I'll be able to get it next Friday. And that will be my official first day as a Florida resident that I can use on my school stuff and all that.

Other than that, things are cool here. Last night a few of us went to Adv Club (of course). I had a blue long island (of course). I saw a guy there who looked EXACTLY like Curt. So my friend EJ talked to fake Curt's friend. They are from here. Fake Curt has a boyfriend. Fake Curt's friend hit on EJ and they exchanged numbers. COME ON! Only the really undesireable guys are after me. It pisses me off. I go out with my friends and all my friends get hit on by these awesome guys and I just sit there like a fuckin dork and then every once in a while a nasty fat ugly old bald guy will be like "You have nice eyes." PLEASE! Kill me now.

I have today and tomorrow off. I kinda wanna go see Fantasmic tonight but I don't want to deal with the crowds so I'll probably just go to Taco Bell and then rent a movie. I dunno. I should really save my money but I need food and I don't want to be bored. And I have to go to Blockbuster to take some DVDs back anyway. At least I have money in my savings account. That's amazing for me.

I guess I'll get going now and grab a little food and do a tiny bit of grocery shopping (meaning pick up some soda).

Sayonara, bitches.

Jeff °o°

Date: 6/29/06
Time: 2:13 PM
Temp: 91° (feels like 97°)
Eyes: MySpace
Ears: BlowOut on TV
Heart: A little upset about some things I just found out about, but excited about some other things
Mind: Gotta get an apartment... HEATHER CALL ME BACK!
Immediate Quote: "Plus you'll get great saving on chiropractic!"

So I'm writing publicly again. Because people keep telling me that they feel that they have no connection to me right now and want to hear what goes on every day. Well I don't really feel like catching everyone up on the last 2 months, so I'm just gonna start like you already know everything.

So I'm sick again today and had to call-in again today. Which makes 3 days I called-in. Which means 5 days away from work. I hate that. If I throw up again, it'll have to be my organs cuz there's NOTHING left. I'm actually feeling a little better and might even try to go to the Adventurers Club tonight.

I called Heather about getting our apartment but it was her voicemail every time so I left one. And she hasn't called me back. She is so nice and really wants to get us a good deal on a good apartment. It will be such a fucking relief when we have a place lined up. And it's even more stressful to Ryan and Joey cuz every time we talk, I have no good news for them. But hopefully today or tomorrow will be the end of all that.

So that's one of a million things I can check off my list of ultimate important must-do shit. So I still have to get that police report sent to the bank in Ottawa. I need to work out some sort of plan with Cingular. I have to get my FL drivers lisence and register my car and register to vote and find cheap car insurance. Then I have to make sure to save all my money because this move is gonna cost so much! Plus school.

Oh yeah. For those of you who haven't heard yet, I'm going back to school in January. It's gonna cost so much cuz I won't be considered a Florida resident til next summer. So my First semester is gonna cost like $4,200 and the semesters after that will only cost like $1,400. It's fucking crazy. My major (which is the longest fucking title ever) will be Entertainment and Theater Design and Technology with a Specialization in Production Design. It'll take 3 years. I can't wait.

Well I'm gonna end this for now and call Heather again. And get some more shit together. And put away all my clothes. And finish cleaning out my car. And go to WalMart for some Draino. Then come back here and take a shower then eat. Then maybe go to Adv Club. God. I can't wait til Ryan and Joey get here and things just get settled all nice. And get into a comfortable fucking routine.

Adios bitches.

Jeff °oL